To The Ends Of The Earth

RMH
(I can’t help but note Today’s Verse on this site as I post: “However, as it is written: ‘No eye has seen, no ear has heard, no mind has conceived what God has prepared for those who love him.” 1 Corinthians 2:9/NIV)
Last night we took a photo of Josiah sitting on Ronald McDonald’s lap at the RMH. This a.m.‘s dialysis brings scattered thoughts & a heart that simply needs to sit in my Heavenly Father’s lap. I am wearing a ‘Courageous’ t-shirt that reads, “My Husband is a Rich Man: He has a strong faith, children who love him, & a wife who adores him.”This is truly our family’s definition of rich, & I purposefully wear every word…I’m sending frequencies into the atmosphere that will prayerfully bless the man behind them. I am/we are so very thankful for Kevan, my husband of 32 years, & the father of our six children; the man my Heavenly Father so perfectly chose, specifically & especially for me/us. There are so many things about him that mirror the very heart of all our Heavenly Father is at work in behind the scenes of our family’s current journey. Kevan is truly a faithful friend of God (who’s married to a woman after God’s own heart so we make a great team 🙂 Kevan is wholeheartedly loving on & providing for us, both near & far, with both the big picture & the minuscule details covered at the heart of both ends. He is truly a picture of our Heavenly Father’s love in every way. Kevan has gone through a really rough season over the past eight years, but those rough seasons profoundly reveal to us how we are truthfully defined in the eyes of our Heavenly Father, what is truly most important in this life…& what’s not.
Back in my worship leader, house of prayer days (I still worship, I still pray – but the things of earth grow strangely dim the deeper we walk with the Lord), I used to sing the song, “To The Ends Of The Earth,” by Hillsong. I wholeheartedly & intently sang:“Jesus, I believe in You, & I would go to the ends of the earth…to the ends of the earth. For You alone are the Son of God and all the world will see that You are God…You are God.”In my wildest imagination, I would never have dreamed while singing those words, that going to ‘the ends of the earth’ would mean the current journey we’ve been on. At the time, I envisioned a grandiose call of going to the nations to point large numbers of children – a fatherless, forgotten generation – to Jesus, & train them up in His ways. In reality: we did go to the nations to bring back an older sibling group of three to become members of our family of five. We’ve trained up our three biological kids since the womb (yes, I read Scripture, prayed, & played classical/worship music to each child throughout pregnancy 🙂 in identity in Christ, the Word, & worship in Spirit & Truth; our adopted kids since the moment they entered our family at ages five, eight & ten. I would never have dreamed that ‘to the ends of the earth’ would literally mean stopping ‘life’ for ‘one:’ sitting in dialysis three times per week awaiting a creative miracle or a transplant (which, by the way, we remain confident that we’re going to get a ‘ram in the thicket’ before this journey ends (Genesis 22:1-13)). It’s like we’ve been given a ‘time out’ from life, to really press in deeply to knowing & trusting in our Heavenly Father to completely heal every detail needing His touch. Stopping the busyness of this life: stopping the schedules, the goals, the agendas, the visions, the have-to/want-to-get done’s, the serving, the ministry, & so the list goes on. We have been positioned to trust our earthly father AND our Heavenly Father to do all that can be done to take care of our needs so we can literally ‘check out’ from the goings-on of life & focus on the only need at hand: Josiah’s dialysis schedule & his need for a new kidney.
Until one has walked the path of serious illness, either personally or by taking care of a loved one with a serious illness, the lens of this life will never reveal what ‘stopping for the one’ really looks like, feels like, or encompasses. I still can’t quite wrap my mind around this reality, yet, there is no choice in the matter…I sense Josiah beginning to wrestle with that reality in the midst of resiliantly adjusting to what is presently his new normal. He is intently focused on finishing his school year, my daily playing frequencies with scientific research to back impacting his kidneys, listening to Mozart, & serious prayer time.If there’s one thing I know that I know that I know: similar to our earthly husband & father being about our family’s business/needs on our behalf as a devoted demonstration of how much he loves us, how much more is our Heavenly Father about His family’s business in good way far beyond anything we could ever hope for, imagine or dream. So yes, my heart today again sings the following lyrics, surrendered to however my Father desires to dream/plan it, simply because I trust in His goodness, His faithfulness, & His infinite love for me…for Josiah…for our family…and for the ‘one.’ Period.TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH (copyright Hillsong 2003)

LOVE UNFAILING, OVERTAKING MY HEART,

YOU TAKE ME IN

FINDING PEACE AGAIN, FEAR IS LOST IN ALL YOU ARE

 

AND I WOULD GIVE THE WORLD TO TELL YOUR STORY

‘CAUSE I KNOW THAT YOU’VE CALLED ME,

I KNOW THAT YOU’VE CALLED ME

I’VE LOST MYSELF FOR GOOD WITHIN YOUR PROMISE

AND I WON’T HIDE IT, I WON’T HIDE IT

 

JESUS I BELIEVE IN YOU, AND I WOULD GO

TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH, TO THE ENDS OF THE EARTH

FOR YOU ALONE ARE THE SON OF GOD

AND ALL THE WORLD WILL SEE

THAT YOU ARE GOD, THAT YOU ARE GOD